Yes I’ve been a slacko! This is my first post since finishing The Camino. I arrived home on 9 July which is almost 6 weeks ago now.
Anyone who has been reading my blog over recent weeks would remember that my father passed away on the second last day of the Camino. I was able to finish and then came home a couple of days earlier than planned.
Since arriving home, I’ve been racing around like a mad woman and really hadn’t stopped until last week when I came down with pneumonia. This was caused by breaking a rib, as I did, two weeks after getting home.
I came home to a bit of a mess at work, which meant that I wasn’t able to spend time with Mum as planned. I just had to throw myself into work and clean up messes, putting everything else on hold.
Eventually I think it all became too much, and I fell in a heap, I hate to even admit this, as I’m usually a person who is able to keep on keeping on.
I can’t help thinking back to the many hours I spent by myself, while walking, and all the plans I made for the way I saw my life going after getting back home to normal life.
So far, nothing at all resembles what I envisaged while in Spain. I seem to have jumped right back on that crazy merry go round of life, in a similar way to my life before the Camino.
This makes me a bit sad, especially when I stop to think that, after almost 6 weeks at home, I haven’t yet talked to anyone about my experiences in Spain. haven’t even looked at my many photos.
Sometimes, I wonder if I really did go to Spain and walk 1000ks.
This isn’t meant to be a whinge. I’m just putting it out there that this is how I’m feeling. So hopefully this draws a line in the sand allowing me to move on to whatever is next for me.
It probably even is normal to be feeling like this after having such incredible experiences. I think I would even find it difficult to know where to start if talking about it,
Before leaving for the Camino, I had read and heard much about how life changing it is. It stresses me a bit to find that now it’s all over, there has been no life change. I’m back to my old tricks of doing more than any one person should do, and chasing my tail as I try to get through each day.