Feeling a Bit ‘Blah’
There is very little to report from the week just gone. As far as exercise and fitness are concerned, it’s been the way of the past couple of months during isolation, with just the usual grind of trying to stay fit, when I really don’t feel much like bothering. Lately, I’ve been in a bit of a funk, with a case of the ‘blahs’ and laziness, which is making exercise difficult and not fun. Wet weather and mud, have been making the tracks where I usually walk, in the National Park near home, slippery and a bit dangerous, due to my recovering knee injury. Cycling is on the back burner, for the same reasons.
But, really, I have to own up, that these are just excuses. In times past, pre Covid, I wouldn’t ever use the weather as an excuse. Ever! Having said that, though exercise has been a struggle, on most days I’ve been pushing through it, even though my heart is not in it. I should also mention that I have a home gym, which means I have no excuses at all to avoid exercise.
When I think back to my gym instructing and PT days, I remember telling clients, when they complained that they were losing motivation, to forget looking for motivation, and just turn up. My advice would be to turn up to a session, even if they really didn’t want to do it. Turn up and do it, no matter how half hearted the attitude. The key is that turning up is half the battle. Often just turning up will kick start enthusiasm. If it doesn’t, and if you do what is a ‘below par’ workout, don’t worry, be proud that you turned up, and kept your integrity intact by not skipping a session. I know full well that one skipped session, can lead to two skipped sessions, leads to three…..and on and on it goes. Before you know it, gym is a thing of the past. I know all this, but for the first time in what feels like forever, I’ve been ignoring my own advice. While being in isolation, which should mean that I have more time than ever in my day, to fit exercise in, I have skipped quite a few sessions. Not all sessions though. I’ve probably been doing more than many people do, but it’s less than usual for me, and the intensity of the session’s I’ve turned up for, has been quite low, most days.
During isolation, I’ve spent hours in the garden, which I don’t usually classify as exercise, but at the moment, I feel like claiming those hours as exercise hours. I’ve been doing strength training and RPM Cycling classes, along with walking, though I have walked less than usual and my weights training is far less intense than usual. I’ve been doing a short yoga session at the end of my normal gym session, most days, but not everyday, as I had previously committed to doing.
Feeling More Positive Now
I’ve thought about it constantly over the past few days, and have decided that I need to start taking my own advice from all those years ago, and keep turning up every day. Every day, not just some days. I’m trying not to make myself wrong over this period of slackness, and just trying to accept that we are in trying times, and the experience of living in a pandemic is different for everyone. Life was quite hectic for me, in pre-covid times. Now that I have an excuse to slow down, I’ve been feeling the need to come to a complete stop. Life in isolation is feeling a bit like a full stop on life as I know it, and an interlude before the next phase begins.
Apart from stressing about becoming a bit slack, I’ve been loving life in isolation. I’ve blogged about this, a few times during the pandemic, and nothing has changed. It really surprises me how much I’ve enjoyed the past three months at home, as I did enjoy working and was struggling to think about retirement being a reality. Now I’m not so sure. For now, I’m practising being retired, and trying not to stress about making any decisions yet.
I’m not sure about the focus of my blog posts over the next few weeks, but now that I’ve given myself a talking to, I plan to just keep turning up here also. I’m not sure if anyone would have noticed, but I haven’t published a blog post for three weeks. I’ve been feeling a bit like a fraud, posting on a blog called Next Phase in Fitness, when I’m struggling to keep my fitness program going.
Also, life in a pandemic, as I see it on the news, with all the struggles and worries that it’s causing, has created a bit of brain freeze in me. It doesn’t seem right to bother posting about my life experiences, which are very trivial compared to the problems facing the world at the moment. Lately, there has been nothing that I can think of to write, that really matters, in the wider scheme of things.
Just Keep Walking
I plan to keep walking and gym-ing, even when I don’t feel like it, and even while I’m not feeling very fit. My plan is to keep doing it, day by day, step by step, and hopefully the fitness will return. During most of my working life, I’ve thought of how I want my retirement to be. I want to be fit and active and healthy enough to do whatever it is that I want to do. I’m not sure when retirement will happen, but I’m so close to it now, that I just have to keep plugging away at improving my fitness to ensure that retirement goal does happen. I’m feeling confident again that it’s still possible.
The biggest disappointment for me, about not blogging for three weeks, is the loss of connection with fellow bloggers that I’ve met and become friends with over many years of blogging. I’ve really felt that loss of regular connection, and I’m very much looking forward to catching up with all the news from the blogisphere, over the next few days.
The following photos represent my week in fitness, which has been more passive than normal.
How has your exercise program been going during Covid-19. Have you been struggling like me? I’d love to hear about your experiences and promise to reply to all comments.
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