Just a warning: this is a ‘tell it as it is’ post. It’s not meant to be whingy or a plea for sympathy, so please hear me out. It’s time for me to own up. For a few months now, I’ve been struggling to keep this blog going. Most weeks I find I’m struggling to think of topics to write about that inspire me. It’s really been doing my head in, but I’ve been managing to scrape by. Only just! I have found my thoughts wandering towards putting the blog into hiatus for a while. Part of me wants to do that, but part of me would devastated if I did it, as the blog has been part of my life for over 10 years. Thinking about this, when I published my post last week, I was reminded of how I approach similar problems, when I have fitness goals that are becoming tedious. On finding myself becoming bored by goals that I’ve set, the first thing I do is think about why I set them and why I wanted to achieve them.
I probably should give some thought to why I started this blog in the hope that I might get some clarity on why I keep publishing posts, week after week. Ten years ago, when Next Phase in Fitness came into being, I was much younger, and still competing in fitness events. At that time, I would go to Sydney often, to take part in different events, either official, such as City To Surf and Seven Bridges, or privately run boot camps. It really was a fun time in my life, but I had nobody to share it with. I was living away from my family, in a city where I knew very few and I was undergoing a huge life change. Fitness became my life. Next Phase in Fitness was intended to be a place to record these events along with the training for the events, and any thoughts that I wanted to get out of my head. I wasn’t so full of myself that ever thought anyone would read my blog. That wasn’t my intention at all. I suppose, in the old days, I would have done this in a diary.
My life in fitness at the time, was very busy, and I had lots to write about. As the years passed, and I aged and started to slow down, just a little, I changed the blog title to Next Phase in Fitness and Life, as I wanted to change direction slightly, and write about life after 60. I was particularly, interested in how it was possible to stay fit over 60. At that time, I had stopped doing official events, and was just doing my own thing to stay fit. Adding ‘Life’ to the title, also made it possible for me to post bits and pieces about my life, that had no relation at all to fitness.
So what went wrong? Well, I’m not really sure. Until recently, I have been happily posting, through my many injuries and challenges. My life in fitness, these days is quite repetitive, and would be seen as boring to most people, so I no longer wish to post about it. I’m still exercising, but my routine doesn’t vary much from week to week, and I haven’t got the talent to make the same repetitive thing sound interesting, week after week. We’ve now been living under the restrictions of a pandemic for about 18 months, which means we rarely venture away from home, other than to go to work. This is making it difficult to write about ‘life’, and I now feel as though I have lost my voice.
For now, I’m not going to make a decision about closing down the blog, but will keep posting until the end of the year. I will decide then, depending on how I’m feeling. For now, I really should remind myself what I have loved about blogging over the years
- I have enjoyed keeping a record of my life
- Putting my thoughts on paper has often helped me see more clearly
- Blogging about my goals has helped to keep me on track
- I have loved the connections that I’ve made with other bloggers
- Each week I look forward to reading the blogs of those bloggers, and am often in awe of their talent
This post is the most unplanned post that I’ve ever written. It is truly just my thoughts about blogging, as they occur to me, as I write. I wanted to get my thoughts out of my head and onto the page, hopefully to find some clarity. Unfortunately, I haven’t found that clarity, but now that we are back in lockdown, I have plenty of time to think. In Victoria we are now in lockdown number six. We are becoming expert at it.
This post is linked to Denyse’s Life This Week
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